I went to the ob/gyn. today. I would like to state before conclusions are jumped to, that I am not, or wanting to/attempting to be pregnant at this present time. After returning from our three month trip to the UK, I fell into a bit of a depression. I know that the jetlag didn’t help. It turns out that three months is a really long time to come back from. I am in no means back to the kind of routine that I was in pre-UK.
And actually, I am glad about that. It turns out that not being in my usual routine was helpful. Coming back “home” showed me how unhappy I was here before. My days consisted of housework, working out in a desperate attempt to shed a measly three kilos that refused to budge. They have doubled and those SIX kilos are still refusing to budge, but I am just coming to terms with the fact that I actually look ok. I will never have a flat stomach, but the lighter weight actually made me look quite gaunt in the face. Well our bodies won’t shift weight where we want them to, and a teeny minority of the population are lucky in that respect. So I have to be happy with it.
However, I was crying myself to sleep and waking up in tears. I told my husband I wanted a divorce and nothing really seemed to make sense anymore. Grasping on to my hormones, I thought it may have something to do with PMS. I contacted a friend who works at the hospital where I gave birth to my children. She very kindly arranged for me to see the doctor on the morning after I contacted her. As soon as I got to the hospital and met with her, I burst into tears…ugh, how embarrassing. We went through the forms and the doctor recommended starting the birth control pill to regulate my hormones. I had suffered from terrible periods in my teens, and had the same treatment prescribed. It seemed to help then, and since having my children, pms and period pains had got bad enough that they were affecting my ability to function with day to day tasks, so I agreed. The only problem with this however, and the reason why I was taken off the pill previously, was because I suffer from focal migraines, I go numb down one side, can’t form words, can’t move without falling over, vomit, and feel as if someone is whacking me over the head with an anvil..nice, huh? Without the pill I still get these, but usually once a year to once every two years.
So I started the course. I felt more normal straight away, but I think that could have been because I had just started my period. But I started to get headaches. There weren’t bad headaches, but any headache that lasts for over a week is going to affect your life. Plus I couldn’t sleep. I had no energy. I felt a bit like a zombie. It was different from but just as bad as previously. Add to that my stress at worrying if my headache would turn into a migraine. I gave it two months before last week I decided I had had enough of it and stopped taking it. Immediately I felt better. My headaches are still there, although not as bad, but my energy is starting to come back, I can sleep, and I’m not worried anymore.
I went back to the hospital today. I was worried they would try to talk me into going back on the pill, or changing to another brand. But I was adamant that I wouldn’t take it anymore anyway. They were surprisingly ok with it. I’m so silly to have worried about it.
As well as prescribing the pill those two months ago, they also did a nutrition check. I had blood tests where they checked 75 components (who knew there were that many to check?!) and cost me an arm and a leg. I’m thankful that my husband is kind enough to think this kind of spending is ok.
So today I got the results of this testing. It turns out that although I (think) I eat healthily for the most part, that I have a zinc and iron (ferretin) deficiency and low blood sugar. Those are the “red flag” issues, among other slightly less worrying “yellow flag” concerns.
These deficiencies cause fatigue, headaches, shoulder tension, feelings of dejection, bad skin, nails, hair, etc. Sounds about right. I was given a tree’s worth of papers detailing which foods I should be eating more of, and the glaring one is protein. I thought I ate enough protein. I always believed that one fist of protein at each meal was enough. They told me I should be eating two palmfuls per meal, three times a day… As I don’t really eat much in the way of sweets, I must be getting too much sugar from carbs. No more white carbs for me. This is no problem for me in terms of taste. I much prefer whole grains, but my husband loves white rice. I have to convince him that brown is better.
As for iron and zinc, the main sources are fish, beef, liver, spinach. I rarely eat these things. I used to eat much more spinach, but with recent environmental events, I avoid it.
I was prescribed supplements, iron, zinc, vitamin b complex and something to deal with excess fat. This lovely lot will set me back around 20,000 yen a month for the next six months. If I were to take all the recommended supplements, I would be paying 65,000…ever get the feeling you are being ripped off? Well I am willing to try for half a year, and the purse strings will be choking. Plus these are doctors supplements, so they are much more effective than the stuff you can buy over the counter. I texted my husband to tell him how much his wife was costing him, and he said, “health comes first”, which made me a bit teary. But you know, he’s right. What have we got without good health? A raging lunatic of a woman, that’s what. And it made me think..we really are what we eat. So I’m off to the supermarket to buy a barn full of eggs, a load of tofu, chicken, pork and lots of veggies. So glad I bought 5 kilos of wholewheat bread flour this weekend…